I'm weird, really weird.

Im so jealous of her, its ridiculous! She's prettier than me, smarter than me, knows more than i do, and has way more friends than i do. Every time i turn around someone is always calling her name not me not ever me. When she's with them i'm like a ghost nobody pays any attention to me. Every guy and girl wants her! It makes me so mad I wish she would just disappear! Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to stay friends with her but then I remember without her i'll really be a no one. I know its wrong and i hate this feeling but its not fair i want that attention to i want to be liked. I don't wanna be a ghost no more. Don't get me wrong i love her like a sister but i don't know how long i can keep playing pretend.